Weeeheeee~~
YEAY!! OMG I am back in here again... It's good to be back to look at my interesting stories posted last time...
Now, I am back in here to post MORE STORIES!!! Woooohoooo~~~~~!!!
Stay tuned!
Again...
another meeting up... i am glad that i have nomore that kinda strong feeling towards you... it's a good news to me... or perhaps, the feeling already upgraded... it's like... hmmm... i no longer wish to see you or no longer hate it when i dont get to see you...
but one thing that is still the same, that i still feel good when i am with you... the way you are still makes me happy, relax... i still love hugging your tummy and kissing your lips... it's no doubt very satisfying...
it ended with a hug and a kiss...
Curse...
bah... i think i have been
CURSED!!
WTF... i just deleted everything few days ago... and...
he came over last night... duh...
probably, it's just a
TRADE between us...
i wouldnt have let him come
IF i dont need his
NOTES!!
baaaaahhhhh...
he took away one of my text books though...
damn it... there will be another meeting up?
fark...
and yea, i am not going to care anymore...
i seriously dont feel like seeing him anymore...
i will let it be... but nomore feelings...
i really hate him when he acted like nothing had happened...
how he
IGNORED my calls and smses last month...
and also
BLOCKED me on msn...
BRAVO!! but, i am also doing the same thing to him...
in fact, i even
DELETED him from both my phonebook and msn...
just farking get out of my way...
AFTER returning my book!! *thanks*
Yeay~~ =)
finally... smses already
DELETED!!
yes yes yes...
and hopefully, i wont be back blogging here again...
everything will be back to my
ORIGINAL MaGiCLaND...
www.ericca.org =)
Deleted...
few days ago,
i decided to
DELETE and
BLOCK you...
few clicks,
i will never talk to you online again...
was reading the smses since last year...
looking at the
DELETE button...
and i clicked on
CANCEL button...
i didnt wanna delete them...
at least, i am keeping some
MEMORIES...
unless my both my phones being stolen one day...
also keeping the chat logs...
unless my laptop being stolen one day...
BUT, i think i am totally
FREE from you now...
Your BB Toy?
i really wonder WHY!! why you like to treat me like this... you just wanna control me for everything...
you come when you wanna come,
you leave when you wanna leave,
you ignore when you wanna ignore,
you do whatever you want without thinking for me!!
i know it's all my fault
AGAIN... my fault for being hoping something from you
AGAIN...
knew that you wouldnt keep your promise towards me although you PROMISED... but i still stupidly hoping that you MIGHT not lie to me this time... i was eagerly hoping to see you...
but you just ignored me, my everything... ignored my call, ignored my sms... you didnt appear...
why you wanna treat me like your toy? cant you just throw me away if you dont like this toy? cant you just choose a proper way to treat me? ignore me or not...? if you wanna ignore, just totally ignore!! dont come back after i am happy with the life without you... stop recycling my life...
you come, you go, you come back again, you leave again, you come back again, you leave again... do i sound like a hotel more than a toy? please...
Again...
another meeting up...
you told me that you wanted to see me... and i guess i missed you too... and finally you came, you were standing right in front of me... and i had to pretend that i had no feeling...
i tried to be as COOL as possible, but towards you... i hardly can say NO to you...
i wanted to say NO when you wanted to smoke in my room...
i wanted to say NO when you asked me to cook indomie for you...
i wanted to say NO when you asked me to move your car...
i wanted to say NO when you asked me to take your bag from your car...
BUT... i didnt...
i even wanted to say NO when you were to leave...
i didnt as well...
why is it like this...? i thought you no longer important to me... and i really thought that's true!! now, you are not here, but i am now sitting on the chair that you sat this afternoon... and recalling our afternoon... and i am only having your left over Dunhill Lights box with me...
i miss the way you spanked my ass and asked me to do something...
i miss the way you wrestle me when i didnt obey you...
i miss the way you named me BB...
i miss the way you smiled at me...
i miss your Armani Mania smell...
in other words...
I MISS YOU!!!!
which is... absolutely wrong...
i feel that i am just like a thief... knowing that doing something is wrong, but i cant help... i am doing it...
please ask the police to arrest me!!
Cute As Usual...
after so many months... finally i am back at this ground... updating the story between me and him... he is still not mine... he is still belongs to someone else... he is still very cute... i still like him... but... i like him only as a friend now...
i like him for who he is... the way he smiles, the way he talks, the way he acts like a baby, the way he plays with me, the way he acts arrogant... and the comfortable feeling being together with him... but i dont LOVE him anymore...
further more, i feel happier now being in this kinda friendship with him... i will NOT remain this kinda abnormal-secretive friendship with him... although he is cute, i dont wanna be the 3rd party between a couple... i am happy that i wasnt fated to be his GF... as i dont know how to imagine my boy holding, hugging, kissing, sleeping... with other girls... *thankx god*
I LOVE YOu
i love the way you hold my hands
i love the way you calling me DEAR
i love the way you hugging mei love the way you tease me
i love you...
but... why cant you be mine? we are still in this ABNORMAL friendship for such a long time... when can i get rid of it... i am seriously tired... and i am getting way too far... i am hoping more and more from you, but you dont seem to get it...
i miss you all the time
i hope to see you all the time
i want to hug you all the time
i wish to talk to you all the time
but... you seem so busy with your friends... with all your stuffs but not me... i always ask myself... why am i being so... CHEAP... yea i am... i have been scolding myself all the while and telling myself not to do that anymore... but... everytime when i see you, i am so happy and satisfied and will just forget hating you anymore...
i wonder... have you really loved me before? or at least liked? or you just dont wanna get involved into a relationship...?
i really dont know...i finally got the courage to tell you that I LOVE YOU, and you replied me I LOVE YOU TOO... but... i didnt have the courage to ask what does it mean...? do you really love me? can someone tell me... what should i do? should i just drag like this? or should i quit? or... i have no idea... Please tell me what to do...
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR
Unchanged...
sometimes... things are better to remain unchanged...
sometimes... things are better to feeling satisfied...
hoping everything is going to be like what it used to be... nothing is going wrong... nothing is gonna be changed... hopefully that this is gonna be better...
i am not going to hope for any changes... not hoping for better... i hope that i can go back to the past... =)
SomeOne
well... this is a bit weird that i am posting here... i wish to pour out something over here...
i miss someone~~ and i am not supposed to miss him... he is not the one... and i ACCIDENTALLY miss him... and yeap, i am trying my best to control myself... not gonna involve more and more... but then i like the way he is...
i like his smile, i like the way he talks, i like the way he acts like a baby, i like the way he manja... basically... he is the cute guy that i am looking for... but... i know our relationship is not meant to be that way... he doesnt belong to me =)
What Should I Do...?
what should i do wor...? i know that PAST is PAST... but... it's hard to STAND when it comes to someone special... i mean not that special, BUT used to be special... the influence is kinda big sometimes...
MaGicLanD
hmm... why am i here? i have no better reasons other than creating an account to comment on my lovely friends' blogs... i have no choice but to get an account for myself...
maybe... this can be another pouring space for myself... who knows... =)
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